I think the 2nd year of university has changed me dramatically, in terms of what I think about life and given me a sense of reality into what i need to make my priorities and how lucky I am to have what I have in the world. I think something amazing has also happened to me, I believe that I have, to a degree, unlocked the section of my brain that makes me have the desire to learn. I have felt the need to start the work that I am doing, but am also finding the further reading and looking into the subject amazingly interesting and I believe that this is something I needed to have happen to me.
All of these things, to me, have really said something to me, they have, I think, "grown up". And that was something that someone who meant a lot to me said I needed to do. And I know that they will probably not see this, but I guess that was something else that has had a profound effect on me.
So for those people, from the deepest place in my heart, I thank you, Its helped me! And yeah I see where you were coming from guys, all I can say is i'm sorry. Hope it will be something to you to know that the comments have hit me like a ton of bricks, and I have taken those comments on board and am so much happier right now.